Hello, here I am, finally.
I don't know how many times I've said I needed to write again until I actually ended up being here. Well, this is a sign that not much has changed in the past couple of years. Speaking of changes though, no one can really leave out the biggest change in 2020 so far: the Covid-19 pandemic. SARS-CoV-2 has turned the life of pretty much every single person on earth around. For me personally, the most impactful effect was that all the quarantine measures put a sharp brake on my very fast-paced life. For the first time since forever I had so much spare time to actually watch a tv show, take an online course, but also to experience an unfulfilling weekend being completely non-productive. Just because socializing and going to events fell entirely out of my schedule. Had I not been forced into quarantine, I wouldn't have realized how much I was missing my "me-time".
Honestly, I'm not sure that I'm not having too much "me-time" at the moment. I don't feel uncomfortable yet, but not seeing anyone outside of the family for longer than a month does not sound right in my books. I guess I'll have to pull myself together soon. It's not like I don't enjoy the company of my friends, right? It's all about finding balance, as usual.
Since the beginning of April, I've taken a break at inpatient service and switched to taking care of outpatients specifically for clinical trials. It's a different approach at patients and at my clinical advancement, which will remain exciting so long as it remains unfamiliar to me. Though I don't think I'll really get bored even when getting acquainted with everything, because the other half of my work will consume much of my energy and thoughts. I'm starting my own research project. Yup, you heard it right. I'm really giving lab work another try, and only because my supervisor managed to convince me that it'll run smoother than how my dissertation thesis went. And well you know me, it is so easy to get me pumped for something. Right now, I really do fancy the thought of a scientific career - for one because of my genuine nerdy interest in science, and for two, it really is indispensable for becoming a leader in my clinical field. Scientific reputation will open doors for me to have vast opportunities and the might to do things I really want to do, even if that ultimate goal (unlikely) focuses on plain research one day.
So yes, right now I am channeling my mind on stepping closer to one of my "Big Five for Life", namely becoming an expert in the medical field I chose - Rheumatology. Indirectly, I will thereby come closer to two other goals of the Big Five, too. And while doing so, I won't forget the other two unrelated goals either. How can I, when I see my Big Fives every morning stuck on the wall of my sleeping room. At least the frequency of me waking up with a huge hungover and a fogged mind is dramatically reduced and does not pose as a hindrance at all these days. :P
I'll call it a day now. Hopefully I'll be back soon with either good news or a truly interesting topic to talk about.
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