Caution: Don't Trust Me with Your Heart

Some things I've realized after my crisis the past week:

1. Title says it all.
2. I'm totally incapable of falling in love. I don't know when or if ever I'll be ready for it.
3. I have serious commitment issues, not just in partnerships but in all kinds of relationships, and I have no idea how to change that.
4. I'm like a bird, I only fly away.
5. Sometimes, I still let emotions rule my actions even if other people get hurt in the process. Need.to.be.more.rational.
6. My parents, despite their imperfections, are pretty much the best parents I can wish for.

My dad flew over from Vietnam and landed in Frankfurt this morning. I picked him up and we had breakfast together, meanwhile having the best talk we've ever had without mom. Talking to him helped me so much this time round because he's probably the only person who can (nearly) fully grasp the complexity of this particular situation of mine. Why? Because every shit I've been feeling is kind of a result from my personality's resemblance to his. Thanks, dad, for genetically transferring your problems to me... :P But also, thank you for always being there.

Crisis is almost over. Yay. :)

P.S.: I already feel sorry for all my future lovers. Take the title seriously.