The year is coming to an end and there's still no sign of snow. I really can't remember the last time I experienced a white Christmas. But nowadays, I've become so indifferent towards snow that it doesn't really matter to me anymore.
Quite a few things have happened between my last blog post and this one. I have no idea why this year's pre-Christmas season is so eventful to me and the people around me. I know of at least five others who will not have normal cheerful Christmas holidays because of shit life has put them through. For my family, it will be the first time we're not complete for Christmas...
The upside of going through a hard time is that people who genuinely care about you will pop up. Their caring ranges from lending you an ear, a shoulder, to just small little things like frequently asking how you are, remembering the little things you said that even you would forget, if they didn't remind you. Yes, some people like that popped up and made me feel loved, and I honestly think it has been a while since I had the privilege to feel this way about my friends. A friend in need is a friend, indeed.
Well, I have always been a person who cares a lot. People like me would like to be cared for in return very much, and we tend to be disappointed when that doesn't happen. It doesn't make us hate the people who neglect us, but it does make us appreciate immensely the ones who care. Everytime I go through some events that are, in my terms, shocking, I find a new person who offers me consolation and support.
That is also the reason why I love my Vietnamese friends so much. It might be the Vietnamese mentality, the Asian mentality, I don't know, but a lot of them are the same type of caring people. The type who notices small gestures, who appreciates little things others do for them. I have gone through a lot with them, and I honestly think that's what made us bond so firmly. Of course happy times when you goof around is important, but being there for each other, caring about each other during hard times is what is crucial for a life-lasting friendship. Or is there any other explanation for why I still feel the same about my Vietnamese friends when we only meet every two years, and I have been gone for almost 10? I just... feel very intense emotions for them. :P
Apart from my commitment issue and lack of patience, which pose problems to any kind of relationship, the bottom line of this post is, I still have a lot of love to give. And thanks to the quite unexpected people who give me back the same, I think I can spend this Christmas feeling happier than what I had imagined a couple of weeks ago. Mostly for myself, this is a reminder that I shall never forget what they have done for me during this difficult time. Mina and Edith, I will make sure they know how much it all means to me.
And on that note, have a warm Christmas, everyone. :)
