The funny thing is, I had goals and ambitions at the beginning of this year, big goals and real high ambition regarding that huge exam - the Physikum. But sometime during the preparation process, I just dropped it all. Never had I taken an exam feeling as poorly prepared and insecure as I did this time. But the results? One word: great. I definitely can't complain.
I'd be lying if I said I felt totally deserving of the results. Because, as mentioned above, I didn't think I was well prepared. Instead of studying more, I spent a noteworthy amount of time to watch the first four seasons of Grey's Anatomy (loveeeee the series btw!). But then again, I do think if I hadn't done that, I would probably have not withstood the mental torture of two-months intensive studying. During the last few days before D-Day, I could feel oh so clearly how my motivation and endurance was running really, really low.
So yeah, I'm still not so sure whether the good exam results are actual results of my newly-discovered ideal work-life balance or it's just Luck that I have to thank it all for. Still working on figuring that out, yip.
For now, I'm back to enjoying life and trying to get back to my hobbies. It kinda annoys me how I don't feel like picking up my guitar at all, or how the thought of writing gives me absolutely no rush anymore. Actually, all I can think of now is medicine (watching Grey's ain't helping), and that's... well, really dangerous. I just keep getting closer to actually marrying my future job and nothing - or no one - else... //sigh
